I’ve been upstaged by a teenager. I’ve always felt that I shine in front of a camera but this mujersita, Alexa of RealityChangers, is ah-mazing. She is so entertaining, funny and talented that I played second fiddle to her on my own web show. I bow down to you, Alexa.
Also, kudos to her parents. They have honed her natural singing ability and nurtured her star quality. Instead of warning her that entertainment and media is not a safe or intelligent career choice, they encourage her to do what she loves.
I’m jelly now, I wish I had that growing up.
Not to take anything away from my momma, but as an immigrant to this country Mami didn’t know what was up from down, especially when it came to helping her children (myself included) develop a God-given gift. I used to sing when I was a little girl. I started singing in elementary school in the P.S. 189 chorus (shout out to Mrs. Tanner for seeing something in me) and went on to sing in a few musicals at my private, preparatory high school, Phillips Academy Andover. I even performed at talent shows in at UMass Amherst, my alma mater. Till this day, however, when I sing Mami comments, “Pero yo no sabia que tu cantabas tan bonito.”
How could she not know that I have a beautiful voice? She came to my shows in high school.
This is why I often didn’t feel seen as a child and still struggle with proving myself and my worth. This, in part, is why I chased the spotlight albeit being a very shy and insecure little girl and adolescent. I wanted someone to see me. I wanted someone to affirm my talents.
Oh well. Byones. I’m an adult woman that can’t blame her life choices and stumbles on my parents. At least not anymore. All I can do now is move forward and try to be the most supportive momma to my son, Evan, and my future daughter. (Oh, she’s coming.) Maybe one day I’ll be in front of the camera with Evan or Ava (yes, she has a name although I am not pregnant) as they blow me away, just like Alexa did.
But only if that’s what’s in their hearts.