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The Right Path Feels So…Odd?

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The Right Path Feels So…Odd?

The Right Path

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It feels odd to be on the right path. Strange to cross off goals on to-do lists, goals once thought of as unreachable, unattainable. The words on this page may even sound warped to those reading. Shouldn’t I feel joy and fulfillment? What’s with this negativity, Sujeiry?!

Let’s just say I’m experiencing an adjustment period.

I am used to struggling, therefore feel uncomfortable when my desires are met. This is the case in all aspects of my life. I can’t recall how many times I’ve sabotaged romantic relationships with dramatics and drunk dialing. Being loved by a man felt so foreign to me; I didn’t know what else to do but to ruin it.  Now, when things are going well, I just feel…odd. I no longer ball up in a corner after way too many Bacardi and Cokes, which I once blamed for all my neediness (now I know it was my abadonment issues). I can’t remember the last time I called, text, or tweeted a man when drunk or to demand something as if I were a bratty child.

So feeling odd about publishing a book (soon…soon), going to BlogHer 2011 (I was sponsored!), managing and writing for LoveSujeiry.com, and, now, interning for La Mega’s El Vacilon, is kind of a good thing. I could do what I once did and ruin it. I could panic when being put on air. I could oversleep and blame outside factors for my irresponsibility and decisions. But I won’t do any of these things. Instead, I am sitting with this feeling, taking life and all its pleasant surprises day by day. Maybe tomorrow I won’t feel so weird. Maybe, just maybe, I will drop my defenses and throw caution out the fire escape.

Because there is no escaping it; I am on the right path.

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Sujeiry is a natural storyteller, dynamic radio show host and the proud CEO of LoveSujeiry.com. She's been at this digital media and content creation game for 15 plus years and pours her heart and soul onto LoveSujeiry.com - the only site for Latinas on all things love. After realizing there was a void in the love/relationship Latina media market, she took matters into her own hands and became the go-to sex and relationship expert on Latinx platforms. The former sex and relationship expert on Latina.com works diligently and passionately to encourage women of color to be their authentic selves as they navigate all things love.

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