Around this time last year, I was prepping for the Lovemionline Love Yourself Festival. It was a hefty task. A dream that arose from a brainstorming session with my then business partner. The partnership was short-lived as was the event, which was abruptly canceled after the death of my aunt on March 26, 2010 – the first night of the festival. And it saddened me. Simultaneously, I lost a family member, the 7 year friendship of my business partner, and the drive and passion to follow through with the festival and 1st Lady of Love, LLC.
With loss came fear. I questioned what I was doing with my life. I hesitated, unsure if I could run a business alone and if I even wanted to. My idea for the festival and the business seemed impossible without the aid of others. So I abandoned my vision. I walked away from event planning all together and focused on writing and performing.
Now, almost a year later, I look back in amazement. I have stuck to my word to be creative full-time while working my daily full-time. I have regained the strength, faith, and discipline that I had then, when I was hustling for event spaces and managing talented individuals as a business savvy professional. My appraisal of the festival has also shifted. It was an amazing idea; a weekend to celebrate love, sex, and relationships through film, an expo, and a talent showcase has rarely if ever been executed. And one that caters to a Latino audience? Yes…this is something.
I also realize my mistakes. The idea – though inspirational, original, and ingenious – wasn’t weighed thoroughly. Not enough research or advance planning took place. The right team was not set in place beginning with the partners leading the charge. Now, almost a year later, I get that.
So where do I go from here? Only up. My creative juices are brewing and I have new, positive energy flowing in and out of my life. I feel solid and confident, therefore my vision is no longer muddled. I am revisiting the past to formulate a better and financially lucrative future. Will I take on the festival again? Well, an annual love festival does align with my role of Sujeiry, 1st Lady of Love. No matter what and when I decide I guarantee I will perform with the astuteness and meticulousness of a Trump. It’s the only way to assure success.