I want to thank you for all you have given me in 365 days. I began with a cross-country move, determined to flourish professionally and nurture my relationship with Paco. It went so smoothly. With the help of a good friend, I had a place to crash and then found my own space – a new home to call my own. I was flying high on life. Things were good! Then Paco and I broke up.
Damn, I didn’t see that coming, 2013.
I took the breakup like a woman. I sobbed for a week, banished his name from my vocabulary, cursed him out a few times, and finally accepted the end, all the while realizing it was for the best. Soon, I began to date. I changed my pattern. I didn’t wallow after a breakup for months. I jumped right in. I learned from my past and was open. And I re-met Brian.
Brian is a bartender that I met summer of 2012. We met the first day that I moved into my sublet in Los Angeles. He hit on me. Gave me his number. Paco and I were just at the beginning of our relationship. I didn’t want to ruin a good thing for a fling with another bartender. So I never called Brian.
Fast forward a year later and there he is – my bartender – on the same public bus that I rode daily to my job as an editor. We went out. We made out. It was hot and heavy and…wow. Our sexual chemistry was undeniable. And that’s what we were, Brian and I. A fling. A romp. A good time. I went into this affair well aware that he wasn’t a man I could or would take seriously. But it was fun. I needed it. I wanted to feel wanted. Paco never made me feel desirable. He wasn’t affectionate. He didn’t long for me. Brian couldn’t keep his hands off me. He told me I was beautiful. He helped me reconnect with my sexy.
That, 2013, is growth.
I realized that just because the Universe brings you together it doesn’t have to be forever. Paco and Brian – they had a purpose. Now that they served their purpose, it’s over.
The same goes for my career and the opportunities that I have created. I flew high in 2013. Some things stuck. some things didn’t. Some things will change in 2014. As for now, I am the Love Guru on Exitos 93.9FM on the RaqC and Nachin Show. I am a professional and full-time freelance relationship writer, something I always imagined was possible though I didn’t know how it would come to be. I am a business owner; Love Sujeiry, LLC is official. And then there’s television. 2013, you gave me a guest spot as a relationship expert on CNN Latino. Earlier in the year, I along with my girlfriends met with Oxygen executives to possibly create a show about us and for us. I auditioned twice for NuvoTV and Jennifer Lopez saw my tapes. I imagine she loved me. I know it will come back around soon enough.
So, thank you, thank you, thank you, 2013. I am grateful for the lessons. I am open to the stumbles. I have grown and learned so much about myself. I am self-sufficient and independent. I am enough. I am loved. I am happy. And it all rocks my world.