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I’m Going to Let God Lead in 2015

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I’m Going to Let God Lead in 2015

2014 is gone. It’s a new year and this is why I am choosing to let God lead.

2015. It’s a new year. 2014 came and went as quickly as a rat scurries through subway tunnels. That’s what the beginning of last year felt like. Fast. A bit yucky. Dark. I had to crawl through some confusion, uncertainty, and darkness. I had to reconnect with my self worth, my love of self, and reevaluate my life choices – where I’ve been, where I was, where I wanted to go. Heavy stuff.

But with the darkness came enlightenment. I realized that this is the way life goes: with every high comes a low. The more I embraced this fact the easier it became to let go and let God lead. It was challenging at first, to let go of expectations, especially regarding my career and what I needed from others as friends and family members. Shit, it was downright heartbreaking. I felt alone many times in 2014. Even when I was surrounded by loved ones, loneliness would often creep in, unexpectedly. I felt unheard, cut off, unseen.

I questioned who I let in all of my life and why. I wondered why I embraced certain people over others. I noticed that I’ve always felt a need to be heard, to be loved, to be nurtured, to be vulnerable. So when I felt connected to the few – those that are strong, ambitious, passionate, go-getters – I bore my soul and sometimes forgot about their needs. The need was so deep to be vulnerable and taken care of that I became consumed with it and neglected to be there for the few in the same way. They needed me as I needed them. Because we are all vulnerable. No matter what we say or do, we all need to be heard.

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Another big lesson of 2014: I blame myself for many things that go wrong in relationships. I take accountability, which is a sign of strength and self-awareness, but I also take on the weight of mending and fixing said relationships. I do whatever it takes. A great quality when investing that energy in a healthy relationship, but what if it’s not a good relationship?

I’ve done this all my life. I continue to work through it with someone even when the relationship should not be salvaged, just because I let them in. So, yes, 2014 was heavy. It was dark. I was tested in new and old ways. I know I will also be tested in 2015. It’s part of this thing called life. That I know to be true, just as I know that I will thrive and flourish in 2015 no matter what high and what lows life brings. I just have to let God lead.

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Sujeiry is a natural storyteller, dynamic radio show host and the proud CEO of LoveSujeiry.com. She's been at this digital media and content creation game for 15 plus years and pours her heart and soul onto LoveSujeiry.com - the only site for Latinas on all things love. After realizing there was a void in the love/relationship Latina media market, she took matters into her own hands and became the go-to sex and relationship expert on Latinx platforms. The former sex and relationship expert on Latina.com works diligently and passionately to encourage women of color to be their authentic selves as they navigate all things love.

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