When I began creating lists of goals for every birth year, I didn’t realize it was an actual bucket list. My goals were mostly professional – publish Love Trips, freelance full time, invest in myself financially. Nothing too exciting or outrageous. This year, however, I’ve injected a lot more fun onto my list. I’ve decided to take risks at 34, beginning with a temporary (?) move to Los Angeles.
I’ve wanted to live in Los Angeles since 2007. A freelance writer and ghostwriter for SiTV (now NuvoTV) at the time, I figured it was the best time to be a gypsy. I was single, had no children and lived with Mami. I didn’t have a lease or mouths to feed aside my own. And I can basically live off french fries and chocolate. I wouldn’t break anyone’s heart by leaving cross country and starting anew, well, aside from Mami’s. So, I made plans. I emailed all my contacts and friends from high school who had relocated to La La Land. Then, my contract with SiTV was cut short. It was unexpected. I lost most of my income and the trip was put on hold. Disappointed with the often fickle life of a writer, I returned to teaching full time.
Now, I realize 2007 just wasn’t the right time. I was scared. I was unsure of myself and my intentions. I was unfocused and I still had a lot of work to do regarding my abandonment issues (still a work in progress).
2012, however, is the perfect time.
In the last 5 years, I’ve build a better network of friends and colleagues in Los Angeles. I’ve wavered a million times over about my career and finally decided to reunite with my first love – writing. Now, there is no turning back. This is who I am and who I will always be. Being creative is what I will always do professionally. I didn’t know that in 2007. At 29, I was still finding my way. Now, at 34, I am ready to check off a temporary (?) move to Los Angeles.
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