It’s been nearly four years since I crossed paths with the man who resides in my heart, and not a thing has changed since the very first time we exchanged “I love you’s.” Of course, thoughtful gestures and caring acts are important in our relationship, but I also tell him I love him every day – whenever I feel like it, without hesitation.
I just love this man, and although some may say the overuse of such a loaded phrase weakens its meaning, nothing could make me say it any less.
I wasn’t always this open to expressing love so frequently. In fact, I recall a phase in my life where I wasn’t even open to the idea of falling in love. It took two years of being single and “doing me” to heal, mature, and identify what qualities I looked for in a man. This was all new to me. I had gotten it wrong the first time, confusing
puppy love for true love, so I refused to let my guard down and blurt those words to the next pendejo who tried to sweet talk me. But the moment I stopped being afraid of getting it wrong again, something amazing happened in my life. Suddenly all I could hear was Bey’s voice inside my head singing, “Remember those walls I built, well baby they’re tumblin’ down…,” as this tall, sexy milk-chocolate man walked toward me.
The connection was instant. In time, he effortlessly tore down the walls I had built around my heart. Before we knew it, “I love you” was flowing out our mouths as naturally as we entered into each other’s lives. Looking back, I never would have seen it coming…falling for someone and being completely okay with it. I just don’t understand how anyone could ever suppress a feeling this amazing!
Whether I owe it to failed relationships or the loved ones who went before I could tell them how I felt one last time, I never let an “I love you” go unsaid. Now, I know what it’s like to really love someone. So when my heart tells me to remind him, I do – first thing in the morning, last thing at night. The look that he gives me when he responds “I love you too” is everything.