Today, my boyfriend blurted that he was deeply in love with me. I froze, unsure of what to say. We’ve only been together a month and I’m not used to spontaneous declarations of love so soon, or at all for that matter.
So I stood there, right hand on a pair of pants which I’d been pulling out from my closet. I tugged on the gray tights. He sat there, watching me with small, cashew shaped eyes…waiting.
“Did you just say you’re madly in love with me?” Those were the only words I could formulate. Just an hour ago he had said he “liked me a lot” while we made love. A Valentines Day present for both him and I.
“Yes…no..I mean…” His voice trailed, and in that instant I knew his most recent declaration of love was sincere. My right hand held the tights tight now. I put them on, leg by leg, still speechless. I pulled my grey, cowel neck sweater over my head before making my way over to him and sitting on his lap, giving him a kiss on the lips. We remained silent. Kissing one another and stroking cheeks, brows, and thighs.
“Is there anything you want to tell me?” He questioned once our lips parted. I shook my head, unable to express the words he wanted to hear. At least not at that instant. Call it cowardice. Call it insanity. Call it uncertainty. I just couldn’t share those words. All I can do is show him how much I care, touch by touch, day by day, action by action, until I’m ready to blurt out my love.