The past few weeks have been challenging. I had a third interview with a company and felt confident the position was mine. Today I still wait for a concrete answer on where I stand.
I am back in New York City, living in my bedroom in Mami’s apartment. The Dungeon, as I like to call it. Since my return from Los Angeles, I have felt stifled and depressed.
Life isn’t moving fast enough for me.
All of this waiting added to my lack of patience and postponed desires have affected my mood, my work ethic, my creativity. But what can I do? I cannot control time. I can’t push the job executives to make a decision. I cannot leave The Dungeon for The City of Angels just yet. It’s not time yet.
So, instead, I am retraining my mind. I am seeing things differently and putting a positive spin on life. It’s in my nature, after all.
That job…isn’t for me. Something better is coming. Besides, I’d have to make a mad dash move to Los Angeles, leaving family and friends behind. No time to say goodbye.
The Dungeon…is a tower in a far away land where I am allowed to be creative, where I am loved and taken care of by my mother.
The time on my hands…is a blessing. I can focus on moving to the next level as a relationship expert. Workshops are on their way and there is other news I will share in the near future.
This time, this waiting, is a lesson from the Universe to instill the virtue of patience. A quality I must bestow to succeed in love and life.
And so I wait for life to bloom…