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Why I Must Learn to Love Freely

Learning to love without attachments and expectations isn’t easy. Sujeiry opens up about her struggle.

Love freely.

Lately, I’ve been hearing about this concept, and I don’t know if I can do it. “It” being to love freely – without conditions, attachments, or expectations.

I’ve always held on to love, sometimes too tightly. Whether lover or friend, foe or family member, or even acquaintanceship, I have expectations that I want others to meet because they are expectations that I meet. I need answers when conflict arises and when things don’t make sense. I need closure even if that means social media stalking, or angrily emailing those who have rejected me or severed me from their life without an explanation that I deem good enough.

I have trouble letting things go. Not arguments or slights. On the surface, I get over those in an instant. But people, well, even when they don’t want me anymore I just can’t let some people go emotionally.

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And I can sit here, tapping away at my phone’s keyboard on the F train subway line, and rehash my father’s abandonment, and how it has caused my need for control and an unhealthy attachment to those who don’t want me in their lives, or I can admit that I cannot love freely.

I want to. I want to be like my friend Vicky who embraces others, and let’s lovers and friends be free to be who they are, even if who they are may hurt her somehow, someday. I don’t want to feel disappointed, slighted or forgotten when a loved one cancels plans abruptly, or when a falling out occurs and the relationship can’t be stitched back together. I don’t want to be like Mami, who reels in her loneliness even when she is not physically alone. I no longer want to whine and bitch when people don’t put in the same effort to connect.

I want to love freely.

But how can I when my heart and mind don’t align? No matter how much my mind says, “Sujeiry, detach and love without conditions, attachments and expectations,” my heart feels the pain of abandonment all over again.

I don’t know if I am build to love freely.

Then, I speak to my mother, and I listen to her suffering. I watch how she suffers due to holding on to past relationships, broken friendships, unkept promises and unmet expectations. And I know I have to find a way to change. For my inner happiness, I have to strive to love freely or risk losing myself to darkness.

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Sujeiry is a natural storyteller, dynamic radio show host and the proud CEO of She's been at this digital media and content creation game for 15 plus years and pours her heart and soul onto - the only site for Latinas on all things love. After realizing there was a void in the love/relationship Latina media market, she took matters into her own hands and became the go-to sex and relationship expert on Latinx platforms. The former sex and relationship expert on works diligently and passionately to encourage women of color to be their authentic selves as they navigate all things love.


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