I have the three month itch. I’m scratching the top right corner of my back like a Black Swan, hoping to soothe the incessant tapping and tickling. But unlike Nina, this itch has nothing to do with ballet or an obsession to be perfect, and everything to do with my passion and love for my craft.
I’m itching because I want to finish my book, Love Trips. I’m itching because I have two other books I want to write, a short film I want to film, a website that I am proud of and want to profit from when in my sleep. I’m scratching hard at the surface because I am done with a day job that doesn’t inspire me and fulfill me like the creative areas of my life. I’ve convinced myself my current daily would be different. I’m a mentor! I can motivate young girls! I can be fulfilled with something other than writing, singing, and comedic acting!
And now I have the three month itch.
My day job isn’t what I thought it would be. The world of non-profit is still filled with crappy pay, shitty insurance, and the kissing of asses to get funding just to stay open. The kids I’m servicing think they’re grown, giving constant attitude even when the program gives, gives, gives. I go into work with my Documents to Go iPhone app on, typing away while I ride the C train, climb up train stairs, and cross streets. This is how dedicated I am now to my craft. Will this dedication last? Yes. Because I’ve been writing and posting on this site from Monday through Saturday for the past two and a half weeks. I promised myself I would write six times a week, build writing into my daily routine and here I am – doing just that. And this self-determination and newly sparked focus has led to the three month itch.
I want to quit my daily. I want to be my own business woman. I want to create and make people laugh in everything I do professionally.
But I won’t quit just yet. The money, though not enough, is still needed. With that biweekly cash, I will self-publish my book, invest in my business, produce my short mockumentary, and more. So I will stay put..for now. I will continue writing and be inspired by successful Latino entrepreneurs like Vanessa Martir, who is a published author and now writing workshop provider, Michael Dia AKA Juan Bago, whose spoof “Black and Yellow” music video, “Pan Con Queso“, has been mentioned on Billboard.com and then some, and Linda Nieves Powell, a creative and lovely producer, playwright, and published author.
They all started just like me and are living successful, creative professional lives. I know I will soon join their ranks and the three month itch will subside.