DECEMBER 19 – HEALING: What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
My healing began years before and has continued onto 2010. Over the years, I’ve healed many wounds inflicted by past boyfriends, my father, and the old me, a master of self-sabotage. I’ve forgiven them for their selfishness and myself for my naïveté and carelessness. Then there are the scars from childhood. Healing from my father’s abandonment was difficult, but I’ve accepted him for the father that he is and expect nothing more or nothing less. Sometimes that fear still attacks and affects my logical thinking, especially in relationships, both romantic and platonic.
What can I say… I am a work in progress.
DECEMBER 20 – BEYOND AVOIDANCE. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
This ones easy to answer because I am working on doing all the things in 2011 that I was terrified to do in 2010. First off, publishing Love Trips (the book). I’ve been talking about this for years and have yet to do it! Since writing Love Trips for migente.com and SiTV, I’ve always known I wanted Love Trips to be published in book form ala Sex and the City. And that’s what I began working on two months ago. I’ve also held back from my comedic side. While at SiTV, I made my comedic videos and musical comedy parodies a priority along with writing. I lost track of that after Lovemionline. I ran away from creative Sujeiry and build manager Sujeiry for fear of poverty, failing, succeeding, not being deemed ‘professional’ or ‘serious’ and other silly self-created aflictions.
One last thing. In 2011, I will learn to play guitar!!! The “I’m busy” excuses are just that, excuses! Entonces ya vasta! I already have the guitar and I purchased an instructional DVD. Come this new year I’m will be rocking out to comedic tunes created and featured in my comedic videos and shows! Preparense pepitas™!!!