I’ve been thinking about my future and how I want to live my life as a professional, a friend and one day a wife and a mother. One thing stuck with me: I am always plugged in. The matrix of social media has me hooked; I can’t get enough. I am so addicted that I check my Facebook and Twitter first thing in the morning and before bed.
I don’t read books anymore; I read timelines.
I don’t engage with people over dinner and drinks; I tweet about being with said people over dinner and drinks.
I don’t write in my journal consistently; my deep thoughts are now splattered on the Internet for all to see.
I find myself wrapped up in the life of others, comparing and contrasting my progress and success, instead of focusing on myself and my growth.
And I feel a little bit like a hater.
There is something wrong with this dependence to share everything with the world. Well, only the good; we never share the bad due to el que diran. Like I’ve said before, our “friends” aren’t really real.
And I am tired. I am tired of pretending that all is well and life is always amazing. I am done with reading (and creating and sharing) images of inspirational quotes to help you, me, us get out of a funk. Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes life is hard. Sometimes you, me, us are too exhausted to make lemons out of lemonade.
That’s hard to do when we are plugged into social media. When we feel pressured to share and brag and chin up. Because everyone is watching.
So I’m taking a break from social media. Unless it’s work-related, I will not tweet or post on Facebook or Instagram. I need this for my soul and well-being. To know which of my “friends” is really real. To learn to reconnect so I can be the best professional, friend, wife and mother that I can be.
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