I was a vieja when I said ‘I love you’ for the first time. That’s 36 years old to you. Yes, you read that right. THIRTY SIX not 16.
The man I professed my love to was Dave…Boo..my fiancé and baby daddy. I loved someone else before him – two men in fact – but I never had the courage, the cojones to utter those heavy, three little words.
Why is it so hard to say ‘I love you’? Vulnerability. I struggled with being vulnerable. Still do, actually. I wanted to reveal my authentic self and expose my true emotions but feared being rejected and abandoned by the object of my affection. I am better at that now…sometimes…but in the past, I didn’t think or feel that I was good enough, that I deserved healthy and reciprocal love. And I was terrified that if I said ‘I love you’ I wouldn’t hear the same loving words in return. Instead, I kept my mouth shut and suppressed my feelings.
Other men and women have similar fears. They share their stories of the first time they said ‘I love you’ and the aftermath of showing their cards, so to speak. Plus, would you date a picky eater? This and more on Love Sujeiry: Talk Served Raw on reVolver Podcasts.