You’ve been chasing something so bad that you’re exhausted. So much so that you stop chasing, and the opportunity you’ve chased arises but you don’t know if you want it anymore, or at all.
Does that sound at all familiar? It does for me. I just felt this way weeks ago when I was presented with another TV project. I was hesitant and the hesitation was felt by those who reached out with the opportunity. It’s energy, after all. Plus, life got in the way and the timing of it was just terrible. My abuelo was here from the Dominican Republic and is suffering from dementia. He was in the hospital for a week and my family was a mess. So, yes, timing makes a difference.
That makes me wonder: if timing is off, does that mean that the love, career, relationship, or whatever you’ve craved for so long isn’t for you? Maybe that one thing wasn’t. I’d like to think that way. Maybe relationships and gigs and certain friendships present themselves to bring us closer to what makes us happier. But he or she or it in itself won’t fulfill us.
I am not sure where I stand now with this new potential TV project. It is now a waiting game, as it often is in this biz. They like me but many have in the past. Now it’s about what comes to fruition.
All I know is that what will be, will be. Fortunately, I know that I will be happy regardless. I didn’t always feel that way. And so this newfound sense of peace feels really good.